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I want my children to know that, yes, their mother is a person too.
Children, I am not a chaffeur, chef, nurse, negotiator, referee. These are just roles I take on to give you what you want and need. Please, let me tell you who I really am.
I am a lover. Your father is the love of my life and always will be. There is nothing he could do to get rid of me. He irritates the hell out of me, yet, even as I yell at him, I'm not truly angry. Even if we are in a fight that lasts for days, I still crave his touch. He is my kryptonite. He owns a rather large piece of my heart. He is one of the very few people I ever want to spend time alone with, at home or in public.
Boys, I am a reader. I'm hoping that this gets passed onto you. It is so important to me to get lost in a story, in an alternate reality. You might notice that it takes me a long time to finish a book, though. There is a reason. I read and reread a sentence or paragraph over and over again, imagining in my head the picture those words are painting.
I am a woman. There are a lot of issues and wonderful things associated with being a woman. My emotions run high. I enjoy girlie things like makeup, chick flicks, cuddles, kitties, and pretty dresses. It also means that I demand affection and understanding. I need to know that I'm going to have people in my life that are not going to walk away or hide when I need them.
Boys, I am a friend. I have very few friends, but the ones I do have, I appreciate. I know that I can rely on these people and tell them anything. I enjoy going out and having the pleasure of their company. They are important, since I too, need human contact to place bits of happiness into my life. They also know that they can speak to me about absolutely anything and I will be there for them always.
I am a daughter. My mother means the world to me. While I've always thought of her as more of a friend in my adult life, I value her opinion and take that into account. I know that I can rely on her if I ever have a problem. I am also incredibly proud of her.
I am a night-owl. My most productive time of day is between 6 pm- 12 am. This is when I have the most energy and motivation. You may notice this, the older you get.
I am not a people person. If I truly click with someone, it's basically a miracle. Also, if we do click, it's likely that I will do my best to keep that person in my life as long as possible. I hope that you find true people in your lives.
I am a bit nerdy. No, I am not full on gamer or hardcore into anything, but I do enjoy things other people would consider nerdy. I am a book nerd. The only game that I do play, The Sims, I am obsessed with. Give me a choice of a girlie romance or a Marvel movie, and I will pick those comic book guys any day.
I am a planner. This is something that you will notice as you get older. I have two calendars, a white board, and one or two planners in play at all times. I covet notebooks for making lists and awesome looking pens grab my attention. If something is not planned for a day, I have a hard time accepting any suggestions, because I'd rather use it for an extra cleaning day or lounging about the house in my pajamas.
These, boys, are only a few things that I want you to know about me. You will learn more and I hope that you realize and develop your own characteristics about yourselves.
